do you have the control over your life?

i wonder when i will have mine.

how i wish i wasn't who i am.

why i have to be afraid and manupilated by others.

i noe you are there watching over me.

i jux wan to be myself.

am i that lousy . why mux i noe things more than i should .

I DONT WANT !!

i really DONT WANT !!

you leave me feeling so afraid of

making wrong choices. i feel so small, even though that is a fact.

there is just this frustration in me.

i am jux so bothered by u . i DONT WANT.

why is the world lik that. why mux you have the control over me.

i HATE IT. i reali detest that lousy feeling.

i have my feeling. you made a human with feelings.

and thats me . i have my pride and my strength.

i am fighting this battle with myself.

i am keeping myself strong. but your presence

jus intimidates me. i fear of losing myself.

your guidance is a pressure.

at this started off wrongly.

it all began with supressed feelings and timidity.

i feel my heartbeat. i feel my life.

i hate the fear of losing everything. but i know i have my pride.

do u see my feelings?