it's raining heavily outside now.
i dun understand why but normally when it rains
i will definitely get emo. mb the rain jux make me feel down.
so i decided to blog and sae how i feel nowadays.
honestly, i dun feel good.i am seriously not fine. i know that.
but i jux can't help it. the feeling jux kept creeping into my heart.
i know this won't last but for now it jux hurts.
it hurts to be just someone standing behind watching and not having
the courage to do or say something. all i can do is to take a slight glance at you.
i dont even have the strength to look directly into your eyes.
this is also the reason why i understand how ___ feels and what ____ is goin through.
i know i won't confess my feelings because i know i am not ready for it.
i have so many more things to handle and accomplish.
i have to let go and put the feeling aside.
however, sometimes letting go is not an easy things.
letting go takes a lot of determination and courage.
i really wonder if i ever can be that strong . can i ?
i am really grateful to those who knows how i feel
and what i am going through. i am thankful to have them around to
constantly remind me to nt be emo.
i am sorry for being so emo this few days.
i dunno when i will be fine . but i will try. seriously, i will.
went to watch secret with amanda. okay . i noe i noe.
you all would wonder why only me and her.
because most of the pple we know have watched the movie.
we are straight, 100%!
okay, i think the movie is quite nice.
it didn't leave a deep impression on me.
btw, amanda, i did not cry. REALLY!
perhaps my tears dried up long time ago.haha.
i really did not cry.haha . trust me.
smile.
two strangers that are a thousand miles apart;
can they ever be together? i wonder.
Confession at 8:52:00 下午
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went to watch secret with amanda. okay . i noe i noe. 
smile.