2007-10-19
.x truth ; fate x.
what should i do ?
i have been thinking a lot today. i don't know where should i start.i feel useless for not doing anything to salvage the situation. i really wish things will turn out well. time heals what reason cannot. but i know that it would not bring us back to those days that we use to have fun and hang out together. however, deep down in my heart, i still believe that we can find our common goal one day. we can stand together to work towards our dreams.
have i done what i am suppose to do ? is it enough?
i know i have not contributed enough. i have been very passive for the past few months. i don't know what's going on with me. where has my passion gone? utter disappointment.
i hope inspiration comes to wake me up for the unreal and bring me back to reality .
i should not always keep empty promises. i have to do something.even if it is a small deed, i have to help out.
all my emotions are so messed up now. after all the reflections, i really doubt my leadership abilities.i know no one is a born leader.leadership is developed through the experiences you gain from all your failures and success.maybe it is time to learn from what i have failed to do and move on . the ship would nv reach it destination if the captain fails to lead efficiently. i cannot let others down. in fact, i have to work even harder to overcome these obstacles. i chose to be committed, so i have to be responsible. nv going to give up ;]
having a bad tummyache,so going to take a nap.hope the pain goes away.later going to meet up with jose they all. so looking foward to see them. it's like for about more than 6 months since i last see them.[ hahah, i tink should be more than that] bye ;)
p.s.
Though we all have the fear and the seeds of anger within us, we must learn not to water those seeds and instead nourish our positive qualities – those of compassion, understanding, and loving kindness.
Thich Nhat Hanh
Confession at 3:42:00 下午
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