at this moment, i'm feeling pretty overwhelmed and emotional. i start to realise that i'm actually about to sit for A levels which is just few months away. in addition, i start to feel the pressure around me. the worst thing is that i'm kind of immune to it. i dunno why but i just don't feel the anxiety when things continues to pile up, there isn't time for me to worry. this situation has been going on for a couple of weeks and i must admit that life during this period is really tensed. looking on the bright side, i believe that i still can cope with the commitments:) on the other hand, i'm really worried for some of my close friends. i know that they are facing difficulties and i'm very afraid to see them breaking down. i really hope that things will be fine soon, cause i don't want to see us all suffer.

i have so much things to tell all those friends i love, but i don't know where should i begin. sometimes when i have too much stuff in my head, i would tend to sprout nonsense and say things which i'll nv understand. okay i shall go sleep now, have not been sleeping well for the past few days. i believe that fate will bring me the answer naturally, i've no extra energy to reach out.

seeking for forgivance or happiness.

( my thoughts are really messy now, so my post is very disoraganised, sorry bout' that)